Visit a monkey in the tree of his life
He doesn't eat the fruit before it is ripe
When the sugar turns to alcohol
He shares his crop with one and all

The alcoholic tangerines are free
The alcoholic tangerines for you
The alcoholic tangerines for me

Monday, January 30, 2012

Air Show

The residents of Chicago’s north side

Gather in thousands on the stepped rocks
Which form the western coast of Lake Michigan.

The bright sky is a perfect frame
For the airplanes that will spend the next hours
Cruising up and down the coast,
Displaying the prowess of human technology.

As I stand among the milling thousands,
Joggers, bikers, and rollerbladers flow past me.
I wonder, is it like this with the walruses?
Do the caribou gather similarly at the river’s edge?
Are the penguins festive in their tuxedos
Among the rocks and sprays of mist?

Look what nature has made!
Consider the beautiful bipeds
Who populate this place.
The sleek green grass,
The sky-scrapers,
The planes and boats and trees;
All are manifestations of a single nature.

There are children crying beautifully
In their bright clothes,
With bright sherbet smeared
Over their beautiful faces.

We hear the whine of the single engines.
Five winged biplanes parade past in formation,
Bright scarves of smoke trailing behind them.

Off shore the water is filled with boats and crafts.
Jet skiers dip between the rocks near shore.
The sunbather’s pink lip gloss
Beacons my attention to her beauty,
Outstanding against the bright blue water.

Later the jet fighters take the stage.
We cannot hear them approach.
They flash by with a deafening boom,
So low the water is seared smooth beneath them.

As the sun looms low behind the city,
The air begins to team with swallows
And dragonflies who gather to feed
At the edge of the lake.

At one spot they are thick around our heads.
Buzzing and roaring past,
The wings of the huge insects shimmer
And whir past me in red and purple smudges.

I swear some of them have on pilot’s goggles
And wear little leather helmets over their interiors.
They buzz loud around me,
Zipping past at astonishing speeds.

The swallows are stealthy and full of verve.
They swoosh and circle in brown blurs.
They look small and fat in the air.
I do not know why they can fly at all,
Like winged puffer fish bobbing in the breeze.

Now colors begin to rise on the eastern horizon.
Bright oranges and reds spread in a slow explosion.
As the sun falls down behind us
Colors deepen and rise in violet over the lake.

At dusk I return from the water’s edge.
All the children are dirty and thirsty.
The breeze blows warm between the thousands
Who meander back to their apartments.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Cleopatra and the Clown



                         1.
Procrastination saved my life, or--
There's nothing more pathetic
Than a procrastinating suicide

We'll either do it or we wont
But the depressing thing is
Every possible method has been done
And done to death.

Our suicide says nothing
Our attempt to stylize our death is meaningless
Our attempt to get the timing right
To execute the details
Causes us to delay and say:

If it were only 1850 again
And a romantic suicide were still possible
If only the motivations were still pure and honorable
Like they were for Tchaikovsky
Whose homosexuality and deep melancholia
His creative genius and his bad forced marriage
Swirled together a tortured brine
In the river of his mind

Who can imagine this scene without the theme
To Romeo and Juliet?
As Tchaikovsky wades out into the freezing torrent
His large muscular wife striding after him
And fishing his skinny ass out by the trousers
She pulled him back and made him live
Wouldn't let him go.

But eventually some years later
Death and Tchaikovsky found each other
After a second attempted drowning failed similarly
He contracted cholera and went out on his back.

Even in the modern era
An artistic suicide was still possible
Vachel Lindsay reaching for a bottle of lye
And drinking it down.
A horrible death. Unimaginable suffering.
His poems out of style, himself defenseless
Against criticism and poverty which is criticism.
A country bumpkin in an urbane era
What it must have been like to realize
That no one cared about your work
Or about your lifetime that you spent
Singing and preaching the gospel of beauty
To an ugly generation.

By the sixties Hemmingway's suicide
Had taken years to accomplish
When his bottle of gin was no longer accommodating
His favorite shotgun was.

Whatever else can be said
A shotgun suicide is at least not vain
Harboring no pretension concerning
The state of one's corpse
But every suicidal artist is finally
A variation on the theme of Thomas Chatterton
Whose suicide by arsenic in 1770
Accomplished the goal of all his plagiarists,
That is, he shamed his society
Into an admission of guilt.
Into an acknowledgment,
Not that the artist has trouble adjusting
To the way the world is
But that the act of adjusting to the world
Requires a sacrifice that some are unwilling to make
And those of you who have made it should be ashamed
Of what you've become.

The boy Chatterton just eighteen when he died
In desperate poverty
Being ripped off by his publishers
Literally starving, he finally spent his last pennies
On the poison that killed him.

                       2.

“The dead are just dead,”
My friend Harry Haller used to say,
“The real suicides are the living,
For whom the thought of death is a continual comfort
The suicide knows death is available to him
If he turns the knob and opens the door.”

But what is behind the door?
No one can say
And the finality of the thing
And the mess we would leave behind
The financial mess and the moral mess
And those who would be inconvenienced
By the bloated corpse of it all

The image of the Mexican steel worker
Crazed with jealousy
Who drove his wife at knife point to the mill
Embracing her he jumped into the smelting furnace
With its radiant molten ore
A leaping flame
A brief puff of steam
And a steel a little richer in carbon
Than the engineers had intended

One possible definition of living
Is putting off death for another day.
Each breath pushes death back a step
Into the future.


                   3.

In the garden at night
A young man in anguish
Sweating big drops of blood
Prays while others sleep

What is the source of his conflict?
His spirit at war with the will of his flesh
The flesh that wanted to live on
To bib wine and eat great portions
Against the gnosis of his father's will for him--
His conscious choice of death

And who can guess the motivation of his betrayer?
Who spent the silver pieces on a bit of land
On which to wring his neck and spill his guts.

An old man centuries earlier could have escaped
The death proportioned for him.
His friends had made everything ready
A prison guard could easily be bribed
A boat was ready to whisk him away
Under cloak of darkness

But he preferred a dignified death
To an undignified life
Though his arguments ring hollow
And tinny to our ears
For his gift was not reasoned argument
But rank stubbornness
He drank the hemlock and paced
The floor of his cell
Until he went cold

                           4.

“A gift of figs I bring,” the Clown said to the queen.
And in the basket find a remedy
For her who asked of the physician
An easy way to die.”

“Put your basket down,” said Cleopatra to the clown.
“The gift of figs you leave with Aspic venom found
Whose bite will leave no mark upon my breast or wrist
Whose kiss will leave the bloom of death cold upon my cheek.”